Sigh, today is Christmas day and I am laying on my couch looking back at this past year and frankly I am not happy. Not happy because I haven’t done as much as I could have this year. I feel like I am in a matrix where I’ve been through this before, felt this way before but here I am. Back in the past but in the present. Knowing this makes me angry at myself for letting yet another year go by and not changing what I don’t/didn’t like about my life. I started this blog last year as a way for me to look back and being able to read what my thoughts were, I need to see what was to get a feel on what I need to do to move forward, but somehow I managed to be stuck.     As a purely analytical person, having a clear, concise blueprint works for me. I guess knowing who I am and what works for me is a step in the right direction, knowing this I will lay out the blueprints on what I need to do moving forward to move from this never ending cycle i’ve created for myself. So Winnie, read these over and over until you will no longer need to go back to this to know what to do.

1. Let the past go, it happened a long time ago, LET IT GO! NOW!
2. That brick wall you built around yourself needs to come down, as soon as possible.
3. If you want to do something don’t look at other people waiting for their opinions, its called self discovery for a reason, as in do it yourself.
4. A lot of things are preventable, take a step back and think.
5. Do what you need to do to get your career moving forward.
6. Stop fantasizing, you have your feet planted firmly on the ground, get moving.
7. Don’t be where you are in 6 months.

I am not going to reread this post to make sure that the sentence structure is correct or to check to see if my thoughts were written correctly, because life is unpredictable and you never have an option to go back and undo what was done.

12/25/2011

Winnie Sabbat